I originally started this blog with intent to document my personal journey discovering my higher power and passions. Now adding to this blog- I am going to document my sober journey in helps to keep myself motivated and accountable- and maybe in hopes of making some new sober connections 🙂
I have always struggled with alcohol- from a very early age. Alcohol was around me everywhere. I drank to get DRUNK with friends, and continued this reckless behavior into my mid-twenties. Something about falling asleep, embarrassing myself and my boyfriend, feeling regret, shame and dealing with hangovers is no longer “just a good time” , “everyone is doing it”. I become someone I do not like when I drink. I am more argumentative, and selfish, and I just have a tunnel vision focus on one thing- get more alcohol to get you to that lovely, lushy drunk feeling you love oh so much.
After my last blackout- don’t worry I’ll let you in on all the dirty details later 😉 I have decided enough is enough.
This past weekend I survived my first weekend sans alcohol. It went seemingly smooth considering it was a long weekend- Monday off from work- and Valentine’s weekend. Both excuses I would have used to get bombed, and most likely fall asleep and ruin the entire weekend for my boyfriend. Nope not this weekend. We attended a fishing derby, went out for a great sushi valentines dinner, went to the dog park with our fur babies and watched tons of new films 🙂
I am quite proud of myself!
I have a vacation to Hawaii coming up in 10 days that is wearing on my mind. I keep having the pesky little addict in me saying “come on, your going to be on vacation, you can enjoy a drink and control yourself”… but I don’t want to test those waters, as I KNOW I will enjoy the holiday probably more without the not knowing whats going to happen and horrible headaches.
Much love, xo