HOLY SMOKES!! I had no clue I was this addicted to coffee.
Yesterday was the start of my elimination diet. So the first day without caffeine, alcohol (actually day 43) gluten, soy, dairy, eggs, sweets, processed foods, corn etc.
Was I in for a big surprise. The day started normally- but by the time I arrived at the office, I was noticing my energy levels were low. I felt lethargic and sluggish all day, not focused and had a hard time having conversations.
Around 4:30 this heads splitting headache occurred, and would not go away no matter what. It was like this deep throbbing in my skull, and it continued all evening.
I couldn’t keep any food down, and before supper I started to get really sick and started throwing up.
I was hot/cold, in bed tired but couldn’t sleep, I was throwing up, head was throbbing. It was the WORST day I have had in a very very long time. This was me yesterday.
I had to have a hit of my bong last night, as I couldn’t take the withdrawal, but surprisingly it didn’t help much (when it usually helps everything). I’ve decided that I am going to still smoke weed during this elimination diet. As I realized some profound things yesterday.
- I am much more addicted to things than I think I am
- Caffeine withdrawal is no joke
- Coming off of everything at once is not wise, and will probably lead me back to “fuck it all”
- I think caffeine may be the reason for my stomach upset
- I now really want to live a drug/stimulant free life- its a HUGE eye opener that I NEED something to survive- literally.
I don’t believe I could have gotten through yesterday if I hadn’t already started this sober journey. Hell because it called for being off booze for 21 days- impossible! Being sober is making me want to fix other areas of my life that have popped up. I want to listen to my body. I think before- I would overdo it, then drink coffee to mask it. Instead of listening if i’m tired, or hungry, or need water. I just drink coffee and go on with whatever else is on my to-do list.
Also, this elimination diet, is really taking my mind off alcohol, not sure if that’s a good or bad thing, but one good thing is G is doing the elimination diet with me too. So no booze for him for 3 weeks 🙂
Much Love, xo