I am feeling on top of the world lately. It’s actually scaring me how easy this whole stay sober thing is. I have had thoughts of drinking, but I absolutely know I will not. Something in me has switched.
We went to the casino with another couple last night. I am nervous around these people, but I just said screw it, be yourself. So we went, I drank coffee, they all drank beers, we played some slots, and my man and me both left up 100+ dollars richer. Then we left at a decent time, and I went to bed sober again! woohooo.
I am beginning to realize maybe I was the only one drinking as heavily as I was. When I look around, my friends had 1 or 2 beers and they were done. That definitely wouldn’t have been me 2 months ago, once I found out we were going, I would have chugged wine first so that I wouldn’t feel anxious.
It’s so ridiculous. Its becoming very apparent to me, that I was trying to hide from who I was. Now my goal is to BE WHO I AM. No matter what anyone else thinks!
I know its early days, so I can’t get a head of myself, I’ve got a big journey ahead, but lately, this sobriety thing rocks!
Here’s to a May Long at the lake, where I will be running, sipping tea, reading, and enjoying the beach!
Much Love, xo