I feel so restless. I want to pack everything up from Saskatchewan and move to BC. Where I can hike all year round, grow my own garden year round, get away from my old life and build a brand new life that reflects who I am now.
I want to start fresh, new place, new job, new friends, away from my family drama. Just me G and the fur babies. But is that realistic? I mean, yes I easily could. But then there’ our house here, my family, this job (where I know I won’t get to be my own boss and make good money anywhere else).
I have noticed my impulsiveness is coming back full force. I want to do everything NOW. This weekend I binge ate sugar Saturday and Sunday evening (felt like shit) and I am feeling out of sorts right now. I am feeling angry almost, irritable. I just want to tell everybody to fuck off and tell them what I think about them.
I guess the saying is you shouldn’t make any big life decisions or changes in the first year, I can see why that might be true..